"What's that?" You may be asking me. That's my blood pressure taken on Thursday night. At last, Dr Yao has given me the high blood pressure medicine. Well, I went to see her because I was having migraine and giddiness on Thursday morning. She told me, "Being a diabetic, the chances of feeling giddy is normal. Let me check your blood pressure.
Man...what's going on with my body. Time to look at myself really. Have to cut down on unhealthy food from now on. Have to rest more and sleep early. But what I think that is pushing my blood pressure up might be due to my work. If I'm too lenient to the children, they become uncontrollable-STRESS for me; If I'm scolding and shouting always, they are more controllable- But too much scolding and getting angry= STRESS/High Blood Pressure. Tell me what I can do?
Change my job after my bond finishes? Take it easy on the children? Easy said than done. I have tried to pretend I'm angry and strict when I'm with the children. But somehow, those anger just got to my head, no more just acting out. Sigh...I'm really worried for Cindy. Because she needs me to depend on for the rest of her live. If I'm single now, then maybe I'm not so bothered by my health.
For the past more than 1 year, every morning when I woke up, there are traces of blood in my saliva. I have finally told that to Dr Yao. Always seems to forget to tell her whenever I see her. She took my blood to check for the amount of platelets and red blood cells. She told me "On the extreme side, this maybe the cause of leukemia." Huh? I was shouting that in my heart when I heard that. Well, in a week's time, I will be able to tell you what's wrong with me...
What's next???
(to be continued soon..)
YNWA @ 5:43 PM
