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Friday, July 08, 2005

140/98

"What's that?" You may be asking me. That's my blood pressure taken on Thursday night. At last, Dr Yao has given me the high blood pressure medicine. Well, I went to see her because I was having migraine and giddiness on Thursday morning. She told me, "Being a diabetic, the chances of feeling giddy is normal. Let me check your blood pressure. 140/98, not good you know?" To confirm her diagnosis on me, she took my right arm and check my blood pressure again. She said "same, 140/98..."

Man...what's going on with my body. Time to look at myself really. Have to cut down on unhealthy food from now on. Have to rest more and sleep early. But what I think that is pushing my blood pressure up might be due to my work. If I'm too lenient to the children, they become uncontrollable-STRESS for me; If I'm scolding and shouting always, they are more controllable- But too much scolding and getting angry= STRESS/High Blood Pressure. Tell me what I can do?

Change my job after my bond finishes? Take it easy on the children? Easy said than done. I have tried to pretend I'm angry and strict when I'm with the children. But somehow, those anger just got to my head, no more just acting out. Sigh...I'm really worried for Cindy. Because she needs me to depend on for the rest of her live. If I'm single now, then maybe I'm not so bothered by my health.

For the past more than 1 year, every morning when I woke up, there are traces of blood in my saliva. I have finally told that to Dr Yao. Always seems to forget to tell her whenever I see her. She took my blood to check for the amount of platelets and red blood cells. She told me "On the extreme side, this maybe the cause of leukemia." Huh? I was shouting that in my heart when I heard that. Well, in a week's time, I will be able to tell you what's wrong with me...

What's next???
(to be continued soon..)

Marcus XA
YNWA @ 5:43 PM
Comments:
I guess it's the mentality we got to change and adjust to. I will sometimes breakdown in front of my students,like today,i have tried many aways to let them be interested to learn chinese, but still things go wrong, they are still noisy and %$#@!!#$%. Well what else can I do?
U can choose other line if u don want to cont' to teach. I am also considering. Dont worry about other matters, take good care of ur health first, have a good rest. I believe u n Cindy can go through this together! Don't forget, FTM will be here too.
 
Dun worri about me! Coz if I cannot depend on you.. u always depend on me. :) But of course.. that doesnt mean that you can be a house husband and stay home and play playstation2 everyday. hahaha... (U wish...:P) that includes talking to your 5 fingers. I dunno how to comfort you about getting angry with your kids. Maybe like my account manager.. she scold us her blood pressure and cholesterol is healthier then any of us! Hahah maybe it is really proof when we do not keep things inside we will be happier!

Just want to tell you we can always get genetic sickness but a higher percentage is how we take care of ourselves.

One more thing. Laughter is the best medicine.
 
do wateva we can within ur limits...sometimes its diffcult to curb ur anger n fustrations...but like wat cindy said...its beta than bottling up...always rem that after u leave the classrm...leave watever emotions u had in the class earlier back there n dun bring it out of class...treat it as if its past tense...

wateva it is...health is something we can never buy...tk gd care of urself...cos if u dun...no one else can do it for u...

drink lotsa of water...\('v')/min
 
Thanks all of you for leaving your comments here for me. I will heed all your advice. They have reallly put a smile on my face! Take darts and throw at their photos! Hahaha...SHIOK! Maybe we should put that into one of our events of FTM! I will pray for all you and also for those monster of ours. May God bless them into little angels!!! Wahahaha.....

-MYKK
 
Man, I have been so busy I haven't been checking on blogs lately... Didn't know you are in such a state! Alamak, you better take care of your health. As we spoke last nght about it, Health should come before everything else. Only if you are healthy can you do everything you want to do.

I sincerely hope you get better soon and that the scare remains just that, a mere scare. Illusion, not a reality. God will watch out for you and Cindy, I really know he will so don't worry too much! Meanwhile, remeber never to compromise your health. You should bear that in mind for so many people, all those who care for you, all those who wrote here and your family too.

Cheers bro.
 
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