That's exactly what's on my brain now. So much things that have went, going to go against me are having such an enormous effect on me. Bigger than the tsunami I think (still can joke a bit here) I only want to talk to people whom I don't know. I don't want to start anything or continue with anything at the moment. Just want to drop down and be an island now. Cast me away, to a far far away place, where there are no worries about disappointments, where there are always just happiness or just sadness. I don't want to be happy one minute and unhappy the next.
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN THIS ROLLERCOASTER EMOTIONAL RIDE ANYMORE !!!
I don't care if you problems are bigger than mine. I only care if my own problems are driving me crazy now! Knowing you have a bigger problem than mine isn't going to make me feel better. It just shows me this life that we live is so screwed up!
I only wanted a little, but you gave me none. I want to give, I want to say when I give, I want nothing in return. Lie. That's a lie! Biggest Lie! I want something, but don't have to be too much. Just 1/10 will do! Can you help me? If you can't even give me back 1/10, I don't have the drive to give 10/10 anymore. That's why I say it's a lie from mine.
Making things better...for what? Once things go up, it will sure go down. Why bother to make things so beautiful, so perfect? Just let it be, no effort, no love lost... Pain when beautiful things have been scarred. Tons of setbacks when things beautiful have been tarnished in the face of self-centeredness, selfishness.
Giving up promises when I see you more important. Do that DON'T EVER! It will hurt you when the importance's trust backfired. Promise you should keep, but make sure it's towards trustworthiness.
Stable, Steady... no ups no down... just moving along the equator will do for me.

YNWA @ 12:39 PM